Soulmate

09 July 2007 / San Jose Occidental Mindoro

We’ve been seatmates

…we were classmates

But it never came to me

…that you were my soulmate

 

I spoke of love for you

But it never came to an m.u.

Now, I am happy were friends

But can’t it be more than that?

 

Funny how time goes

Foolish how I stand here all along

Still in love with you

Which just complicates the already complicated me

 

Is it you who called me your soulmate?

What made you do so?

Did I misunderstood it?

Are you falling for me too?

Detached

06 July 2007 / 10896 Catalan Compound, UPLB

I am sad…

In a months’ time, a friend would leave

Eight moths after which I’ll do the same

I just feel the need to detach

 

I want to let go of this ill feeling

I want to hold on to the happy ones

I want to live my life as I did before

That is just to go around and play

 

Can’t it be just like that?

Can’t things remain constant?

Can I just go back…

To the days when we just laugh?

 

Nothing’s constant!

Only water becomes stagnant…

We just have to accept the fact

Move away and do the act

 

I want to detach!

But is there a need to detach?

I want to be happy!

How can I…when I just want to flee?

 

Is everything that feels bad bad?

Is everything bad calls to be detached?

Is detachment the only way not to feel bad?

What am I supposed to then God?

Pause

05 July 2007 / 10896 Catalan Compound, UPLB

We’ve met

You never left

A fact you made me believe

That a morning waits after the eve

 

We’ve shared memories

We poured our bond with cement

Stuck together

I want to stay here forever

 

Fact is, cement wears out

One of us needs to move out

And our time here

Approaches its end which is my fear

 

Sibling you were to me

Together, we built a family

And now’s the time to say goodbye

I hate it when I have to cry

 

I’ll see you then my friends

And what we have will never end

Time for us will just take a pause

When we see each other again, we’ll know the cause

Mat!

03 July 2007 / 10896 Catalan Compound, UPLB

I knew of someone

Who chose to be unique

He was loved by everyone

With his funny antics

 

At times, he was crying

Many times, he was hurting

But it never seemed a burden

For us-his friends to be saddened

 

We’ll surely miss this guy

Oh, how sad it is to say goodbye

But for you to find your way

Is our hearts desire as we pray

 

The hope of seeing you someday

Remains as we part ways

Looking forward to that day

And to reminisce our silly ways

 

Sadness inevitably fills in

But happiness is what we want you to bring

To that place where you’ll set in

To that place where you’ll be springing

 

We love you Rowell

Bring with you the joy and laughter

You may leave us crying and in a shatter

For in our hearts, you’re someone that matters!

Extension

13 June 2007 / San Jose Occidental Mindoro

Vacation’s almost over

I’m about to leave

It’s time for me to be a sober

Can I just stay for one more eve?

 

It’s been boring yet fun

Stayed at home with a tv and a fan

With my family, I laughed

To their grievances I listened

 

My time here was worth the while

But I just can’t get enough

The memories I’ll take with me are treasures

I just need to take one more gold and have an EXTE NSION!

Uninspired

04 June 2007 / San Jose Occidental Mindoro

I’m blank

‘wish I can go back

Can’t cry

‘wish I had the courage to fly

 

‘feels so sad

Can’t I just bring these in my bag?

‘feels so numb

Why can’t I let go of the things I have?

 

It’s complicated

Things are the way they are-says my head

I’m depressed

You should have done more-my heart pressed

 

I need a friend

Someone I can talk with to ease the pain

I need to move on

And flow like a free spirit to the moon

Coagulates

01 June 2007 / San Jose Occidental Mindoro

Can’t a day last without hatred?

When will I be feared?

And earn respect from them…

Who makes my life so unsolemn

 

They are so stupid!

Why do I have to meet such?

I can’t remember when our roads crossed

If only I could get back and be my destiny’s own boss

 

They say everything has a purpose

But its their existence which I can find no reason

They make it difficult for me

Is it that hard to see?

Last Summer Break

31 May 2007 / San Jose Occidental Mindoro

Here it comes again

The feeling starts to sink in

I’m about to leave

And my summer break ends this eve

 

My last sun as a teen

Was spent and now has been

The next days will be crucial

For it bids my college life final

 

I’ll miss my family

And my friends whom I played with

The way I laugh with my parents

And hours spent to nothingness with my friends

 

These days had been great

But still, I can’t accept the fact

That this time next year

It’s an employer whom I will seek

 

Yes, this is my last summer break

Last days of my foolishness

The last days of my stupidity

The start of a serious career

Their Story

31 May 2007 / San Jose Occidental  Mindoro

A couple I used to know

My parents who made me grow

The people whom I am thankful for

Has a story once told before

 

They say they don’t love each other

For them, to think is just to bother

For God, with time brought them together

To build a family that would last forever

 

Funny how things go and went

Amazing how they laugh and at times, weep

But a whish’s kept inside me

To have my own story to treasure thee

Plans

28 May 2007 / San Jose Occidental Mindoro

Tomorrow is yet to come

Circumstances cannot be foreseen

Yet I know I have to do some

For me to see a beautiful scene

 

There’s a lot I have in mind

Several things I need to do

I just hope I won’t get blind

Of things I have to undo

 

Uncertainties cannot be predicted

But estimates an lessen uncertainty

What will happen tomorrow is unknown

But we are all aware of one’s own

23 May 2007 / San Jose Occidental Mindoro

‘took me here and left

‘held me up and let me down

cared for and later hurt me

drove to far to keep me isolated

took me from home

brought me to the cliff

she broke me!

Never Were

22 May 2007 / San Jose Occidental Mindoro

I made myself believe

That you and I were meant to be

That what we’ve been through is part of our story

That this is what God has planned for me

 

‘Made some decisions

Just to give us the motion

No space for regrets

I just have to forget

 

I don’t want to hurt

As well as be hurt

Can’t I just be happy…

With the one I wanted to be with?

 

I guess I am yet to see her

Or is it just her who failed to notice?

…a ridiculous thing to realize

That these things are still on my mind

 

Is she really a good player?

Am I a game that needs her?

What I need is a prayer

And an immediate answer!

Constellation

21 May 2007 / San Jose Occidental Mindoro

You see that star?

The one that’s too far

The one who’s white as the dove

And part of the sky above

 

You see its neighbors?

The one who flickers with glamour

Who outshines the one I’m telling you

That also has a space of the sky indigo

 

You see those on the far end?

Those that easily blends

Whose elegance seems to have no end

That stretches to the sky that on the horizon bends

 

Some outshines

Some will make you shine

But one thing remains constant

That they belong to the same big sky

Loosening

16 May 2007 / San Jose Occidental Mindoro

Felt tired lately

It was such a trip

Wanting some comfort

Just needed to unload

 

Which one should I let go…

What are for me to keep?

Will it help me in my path…

Or prolong the agony I have?

 

Still have a lot to travel

Don’t have much time

There’s a decision to make…

Can I ask for one more time?

 

I’ve chosen to let go of her

But still, I am in a wonder

Is it because I want to travel light…

Or just for me to free myself for my past?

Done

14 May 2007 / MV Ma. Isabel (San Jose to Batangas)

Can I?...

May I?...

Could you please…?

Allow me to finish?

 

A second passes

A minute’s over

The sun sets in

And the moon took over

 

Yesterday’s gone

Tomorrow would be tomorrow’s yesterday

Your first birthday was tears past

And your last would just be days away

 

Seize the day!

Says they…

How can I?

When it has passed!

Destiny

12 May 2007 / San Jose Occidental Mindoro

I was told to be aware

Of things love can bear

Of the things one should bear

Of all which I have to look over

 

But I guess I never listened

Nor did I bother to care

All I did was to ponder

On myself as a lover

 

But I still feel torned

Is this how I feels to be adored…

Or just the way for someone who adores?

But I’m afraid I’m already bored

 

Tomorrow is so unsure

As the way things turn out

It’s definitely out of our hands

But what human can do still bounds

 

We an choose to welcome tomorrow

Or embrace yesterday with sorrow

It’s out of our hands

But definitely of nobody’s commands

The Man I Wanted to be

09 May 2007 / San Jose Occidental Mindoro

This is me

But I hate me

I know how things ought to be done

Yet I tend to do things the other way

 

A way they don’t expect a man to do

Hence, my character is often doubted

But they are not the only one

Even I, myself has doubts

 

I don’t want to be this way

I want to be the man expected of me

But it is difficult to maintain consistency

From the man I am and the man I wanted to be

5 May 2007 / San Jose Occidental Mindoro

The more I learn about life, the more I get bothered by it…

5 May 2007 / San Jose Occidental Mindoro

I wish you were the wind

I could tell you my worries

And you could carry it away

I could complain about you

And just be ignored

You’ll comfort me with your warm breeze

And just fly me away from here…

Bothered

3 May 2007 / San Jose Occidental Mindoro

Her smile lingers

Oh, I love her smell

The voice of an angel

These and more keeps I entangled

 

I left

Thought I made a life

I came back

Yet the feeling remains

 

Still clueless of what to do

I remain safe in my room

Unloaded my luggage

And lived like a new born

 

Gave up what I had

Those I’ve earned when I left

But still in a wonder

Is she worth everything I have or am I just under paranoia?

Clouds

27 April 2007 / San Jose Occidental Mindoro

I saw the sunlight seeping in

Only then, I appreciated the shade

I soaked in the rain poured after

But never noticed who’s the one responsible for it was

 

I gazed around and suspected many things

But never answered the question I keep on asking

I’ve searched for clues but each just led me to another

Does my question really has an answer?

 

I felt exhausted searching

For that something I’ve long felt

Only then I looked above and saw it

Realizing that I’m good at searching but numb at one thing

 

It comes in different forms and shades

Gives us rain as well as shade

Conditions which either wakes or silence our beings

T’was the clouds who have been doing the things I always noticed

Displaced

March 2007 / 10896 Catalan Compound, UPLB

The spotlight was shifted

The actors already went home

The audience is obviously bored

The protagonist lost his lure

 

He was trained in doing monologues

He never played the sidekick’s role

He was motivated to entertain himself

Realization comes, even he’s getting bored

 

He’s the only one left at the stage

No one bothered to stay with him

For he never requested anyone to do so

He thought, he can do anything on his own

 

Loneliness now fills in

For the nth time he was abandoned

He was all alone

So much displaced

Inadequate

January 14, 2007 / 10896 Catalan Compound, UPLB

I am a knight

As far as I know, I am

For the princess, a soldier

Someone who fights with co-soldiers

I

was victorious then

Acknowledgements from the kingdom

Cheers I shared to colleagues

Was that all a bad dream?

 

For now the princess is saying something

Saying I wasn’t brave at all

My colleagues has also something

They say I wasn’t good enough

 

Was I a failure?

Or is it just a matter of perspective?

Was I really inadequate?

Or is it just they who were discontented?

Alone

January 14, 2007 / 10896 Catalan Compound, UPLB

I was not used to this feeling

My mind desperately fleeting

I can’t think of anything else

I just wanted to be somewhere else

 

Perhaps in the warmth of my family

Where I can Move freely

Without annoying anybody

A place where I am somebody

 

I hate this feeling of solitude

‘Brings out my worst attitude

I’m used to company of friends

Where I feel happy until the end

 

At the end of the day, it’s just me

Someone whom I used to see

Still a ghost at night

A person who used to be a knight